This week has been all about "keep Kicking" for me. I weighed in Sunday.... It was not pretty. I actually cried over the scale (first time that has ever happened). I was mad at myself more than anything and really bummed. I really just wanted to chow down because I'd already done the damage right?

But I spent the rest of Sunday looking at what I was doing that might be unconscious eating and paying attention in general. Realized I'd been doing quite a bit of snacking out of the raisin jar without even thinking about it (or counting it). Took the time to prepackage my almonds into snack size bags and am going to do the same thing with the raisins so I can grab and go. I also have exercised and planned things out a little more than I usually do.

I've been consistently on plan for the last two days and I took some measurements this morning to see if everything is back in check. ANd it is!

This reminds me. time to start downing my water for the day!

When I don't eat, I gain weight. I don't eat when my family is traveling or on the road. This being the case for a 5 day "boys" trip, I knew I had to do something or gain weight. So I planned meals with friends, people I hadn't had time or they hadn't had time to sit and share a meal. We each brought something to share, and something totally healthy for dinner. Five days, five friends and time shared. For breakfast, I had fixed ahead of time muffins and took them out the night before so they would be unfrozen and ready to eat, those I took to the park with some juice and coffee. Lunch was a salad shared with a neighbor who eats alone everyday. Pretty good for the five days, for me, and I went in with a 2 lb weight loss.

I'll go with yesterday & today.

I'm under a lot of pressure to pull off an A in my physics class or I'll have to retake it. I'll admit I'm really, really motivated because I really don't want to retake the class, let alone pay for it again.

But I got my last test back. I busted my rear end and stupid mistakes led to a B, not the A that I needed. I don't quite know what that does to my grade right now, because I don't have all my papers, etc. that I have turned in back yet.

I was so upset last night and yesterday afternoon, that I wanted to drown my sorrows in the leftover macaroni & cheese I have in my freezer, on top of what I already ate. This would have driven my salt level through the roof and undone Monday's whole day of getting back on track. I feel like I let myself down, even though I know that I might still be close enough to pull off the grade.

But I had to be thankful that I caught myself before I gave in to my inner toddler who just wanted to console herself with the macaroni & cheese. Because I'd be grumbling over a weight gain this morning instead of being really excited about a weight loss from yesterday.