Explanatory Notes for New Folks: 1. The Group Journal was created to give everyone a place to post things that perhaps they didn't want to start a new thread about, but just wanted to get off their chest. It can be used by anyone for any reason--celebrate your successes, vent your frustrations, ask questions, ask for support, whatever you need to do...that's what the journal is for!
2. Because the original Group Journal got very large and unwieldy to read, we decided that we'd cut off each Journal as it reached 70 posts and then create a new one. This Journal is called "Group Journal #35" because it is the 35th such post since the Journal was created.
3. When the Journal was created, we agreed that things posted here didn't necessarily require a response. Sometimes you just want to report or vent but don't really expect a reply. Other times, you may want feedback. Feedback is fine here, just not required/expected.
4. To make each Journal different from the next, I began creating theme journals, just as if our "virtual" online journal here was an actual paper journal we were writing our thoughts in. So, while I post the Journal threads, I often write them as if I was the Journal character. It's silly but folks seem to enjoy it.
Howdy y'all. I'm Cyndi Lou, your Start of Summer Journal. My cover features a beautiful beach scene--blue sky, fluffy white clouds and a dazzling sun. Inside, my pages are pale blue with a cloud imprint and dark blue lines. The lower corner of each page is decorated with a little cartoon representing our members being active--Brie and Laura running, Denise and Judy walking, Cathy swimming--you get the picture!
I'll be on this old picnic table next to a basket of strawberries. The silly rubber pen is a beach ball and, as usual, a slim silver ballpoint is provided for those who can't see themselves writing with a rubber pen!
Enjoy your Journal!
Posts: 7122 | Location: Rehoboth Beach, DE | Registered: March 12, 2004
I am close to as big as I have ever been. Ever since my back surgery, I seem to have just gone down hill - not able to "do" like I used to. I am walking most mornings for at least a half hour - sometimes an hour.
The actual point is that my eyes are always surprised at how I look when I see myself in a mirror. Now, I'm surprised at how big I look. After I lost 80#, I was surprised at how thin I looked - I still thought I was big. I seem to have trouble with my body image coinciding with my actual body.
I have taken some steps recently - small ones - but they seem to have me turning a corner. I'm down about 7#.
Originally posted by Nbox: Last night I sat down and browsed through our photo albums from 2-3 years ago. I wanted to see if I could find a pic of me where I could see the change, a sort of before and after thing. It was really hard to find pics of me and even harder to find pics where you could really see what size I was then. I finally found some (initial reaction: Eww!), but what feels so strange is I can't *see* the difference between me now and me then. I'm 30 lbs lighter and I know what the tape measure says. I'm wearing pants that are really baggy on me now but fit well then... and I still can't see it. Maybe I never will. Maybe I'll have to try and *feel* it instead. Weird!
Puck, I'm the same way. I still don't really "see" myself as particularly thin. I found that from looking at our trip pictures, I'm still very hyper critical of how I look and thought I looked "fat" in many of the pictures.
On the other hand, I never saw myself particularly obese either even when I truly was.
I still have that image of a 150 pound or so woman in my head that I carry around with me. That's kind of how I see myself now, and how I saw myself when I was heavy.
I've been at goal for over 5 years now and that still hasn't really clicked for me.
I figure if I can just keep at it, that will eventually change.
PS There are never lots of pictures of me no matter what my size as I hate being in pictures! Cori forced me this trip ; )
summer 7 challenge goals: - Meditate every day - Start the day with positive imagery and self talk Out of our beliefs are born deeds; out of our deeds we form habits; out of our habits grows our character; and on our character we build our destiny.
Last night I sat down and browsed through our photo albums from 2-3 years ago. I wanted to see if I could find a pic of me where I could see the change, a sort of before and after thing. It was really hard to find pics of me and even harder to find pics where you could really see what size I was then. I finally found some (initial reaction: Eww!), but what feels so strange is I can't *see* the difference between me now and me then. I'm 30 lbs lighter and I know what the tape measure says. I'm wearing pants that are really baggy on me now but fit well then... and I still can't see it. Maybe I never will. Maybe I'll have to try and *feel* it instead. Weird!
****************** “The older you get, the tougher it is to lose weight because by then, your body and your fat are really good friends.”
Originally posted by Tayhudson: WHAT????!!!! At that point, did every one offer to pay for his/her meal?
Dawn
I don't know how many of the others knew what was going on or that John had not cleared it with his grandfather first since he often does pay for everyone. I know I was not prepared to shell out $132 for me and dd on the spot and I don't think that anybody else there could either (except maybe my sister). I had taken a hundred with me with the idea of paying for the two of us but they did not do seperate checks and I had no idea it would be THAT MUCH and daddy will not take cash money from me even when he pays for something for me or dd. (My daddy is a saint and everybody knows it.)
1. do 4 laps on walking track without "resting" 2. do 1 mile (17laps) in 20 minutes (3miles per hour)
Posts: 3839 | Location: NE Atlanta (Chamblee, Doraville, Norcross, Duluth) | Registered: March 15, 2004
this has happened to me before. expected to pay for a family meal to celebrate graduation. once we arrived, we looked at the menu prices--oh my GOD! dh and i ordered one appetizer between us and split it. appetizers were already hugely expensive, and large portioned. one (among others) thing that irked me was that people ordered huge expensive entrees, and then left 75% of the meal uneaten (to throw out), and ordered lots of alcohol, and then stuck us for the bill. i was furious. dh was trying to stay calm.
Goals: 1. Stop thinking like a chronic dieter and start living to inspire. 2. HALT (hungry, anxious, lonely, tired) I will stop and tune in with myself should I experience these things, and respond with something healthy. 3. One word 2008: courage 4. Eat slow and mindfully.
Originally posted by BrenauMom: I am really PO-ed at my nephew tonight. He is 37 years old and invited 12 of us (friends & family) to a really expensive place for dinner. When the $800 check came he handed it over to one of the guests (his grandfather) to pay. He had NOT cleared this with him beforehand, but I am sure that was his plan all along.
Yes, you read that correctly! $800 for 12 people. And no one had any alcohol.
WHAT????!!!! At that point, did every one offer to pay for his/her meal?
Dawn
"Success is not the result of spontaneous combustion. You have to set yourself on fire." anonymous
Posts: 4197 | Location: Indianapolis, IN | Registered: March 15, 2004
I am really PO-ed at my nephew tonight. He is 37 years old and invited 12 of us (friends & family) to a really expensive place for dinner. When the $800 check came he handed it over to one of the guests (his grandfather) to pay. He had NOT cleared this with him beforehand, but I am sure that was his plan all along.
Yes, you read that correctly! $800 for 12 people. And no one had any alcohol.
1. do 4 laps on walking track without "resting" 2. do 1 mile (17laps) in 20 minutes (3miles per hour)
Posts: 3839 | Location: NE Atlanta (Chamblee, Doraville, Norcross, Duluth) | Registered: March 15, 2004
I'm going to NYC at the end of September for my 20th high school reunion and I can't wait.
summer 7 challenge goals: - Meditate every day - Start the day with positive imagery and self talk Out of our beliefs are born deeds; out of our deeds we form habits; out of our habits grows our character; and on our character we build our destiny.
I'm in New York City to try out (again) for Who Wants to Be A Millionaire. My test is tonight at 7 p.m.
I love New York and my cousins I get to visit with (one took me out to The Oyster Bar last night - I ate cheaply, we each had one beer - the tab was over $80!) Thank you, cuz!
I am already a little homesick. They're working during the day and I get to wander on my own which is neat. But I miss dh and ds. And Patches, too!
I know its easier to just give in to Mom, but please, please, don't. Can you schedule something else today, if not shopping? Or a one-on-one trip with you and dd?
Signed,
got the front lawn mowed, the rest will have to wait till next week.
Mother has decided it is going to be too rainy to go shopping in Alabama today so now dd is angry & in tears because we are going tomorrow instead of today.
And I am in the middle
1. do 4 laps on walking track without "resting" 2. do 1 mile (17laps) in 20 minutes (3miles per hour)
Posts: 3839 | Location: NE Atlanta (Chamblee, Doraville, Norcross, Duluth) | Registered: March 15, 2004
Originally posted by Brie: I'm glad the job is still a possibility Dawn but sorry to hear that the bus driver freaked out. Hopefully it won't be the same person on your son's route next year.
Thanks. Me too!
I hope your day is going better.
Dawn
"Success is not the result of spontaneous combustion. You have to set yourself on fire." anonymous
Posts: 4197 | Location: Indianapolis, IN | Registered: March 15, 2004
I'm glad the job is still a possibility Dawn but sorry to hear that the bus driver freaked out. Hopefully it won't be the same person on your son's route next year.
summer 7 challenge goals: - Meditate every day - Start the day with positive imagery and self talk Out of our beliefs are born deeds; out of our deeds we form habits; out of our habits grows our character; and on our character we build our destiny.
and everybody knows it.)
If I'd ever done that to my grandfather, he'd have told me I was nuts and given it right back! 
