Well after MUCH procrastination (over a month), I have an appointment for an echocardiogram (as requested by my endocrinologist) on May 24. Here's hoping that the results will not be anything too scary.

It is something about Monday, that I know I need to be at the Y to work, then I think it would be so nice to be able to find a workout to do at home so I don't have to packup my gym bag with my shower gear and lunch.

Well, today I challenged myself. My partner was the dog and we went for a walk dh and I used to take together. It is closer to 40 minutes and great on an overcast day like today.

I was going to do my cardio plan at the Y, but I have to say this was a nice kickstart to the week. Also because I do prefer my showers over the gyms.

None the less, I really feel great! Before the walk I was feeling a bit sluggish like I really don't want to workout even though I know I need and should today. (Note: I did not workout on Sunday)

So now I get another hour to myself.

Steph,
Good for you! Glad you had a great day!


Linda,
Sorry to hear things did not go well w/your mother. I hope you are feeling better soon.
Jill

Well, another day that I am so pleased with.

I got to participate in a 5K with a great friend this morning. It was a early morning, but WELL worth it. The weather was perfect and our time was great too.

Then I was off to meet another great friend for breakfast. We not only got some girl time, but tried a wonderful new healthy resturant, that I know will be back.

I came home and got to relax with dh and dog. About an hour ago I got back from getting some veggies for tonight's dinner and did some prep work for stir fry for lunch tomorrow.

I am not sure what I will be doing tonight, but I am so happy about the rest of my day.

Because I was going to be in Toledo for a funeral, I called my mom to see if she wanted to do a little something while I was there and not occupied. She suggested we go out to lunch. Where she suggested, I was surprised. She wanted to go to one of those all-you-can-eat buffets.

I started by piling my plate with dark lettuce, spinach and veggies to overflowing. She didn't. I found a little chicken that wasn't too disgusting and some mashed potatoes (just a smidge). I did have a very small piece of carrot cake for desert before we left.

The reason that I mention this is because I didn't think she should have been doing this. I have found out since her stroke, that it was caused by diabetes that she has had for awhile, but she didn't think it was anything to worry about.

She decided to "reward" herself after her Doctor told her this week that she is doing very well. So she was "talking the day off" from watching her eating and testing and such.

I could scream!!!! My mother is an intelligent woman. Why would she do this to herself. Granted, I get my weight from her (I smoked for YEARS hoping not to look like my mom). Do I just let go 75 years of eating what she wants when she wants?

I also asked her whether she signed up for the Medicare Drug plan and she hadn't. She doesn't think she should. I told her that it would save her money (something that usually pushes her buttons), but she didn't seem interested.

Thanks for listening.

Laurie,
I agree, that really does suck. That was incredibly disrespectful of that manager and now you have to suffer for it?

Steph,
Sounds like you are doing well. More power to you, i have tried reducing carbs but it doesn't work for me, mostly because I turn to protein and end up getting far more protein/fat than I should have in a day. Keep up the good work!

Bee,
Your life sounds exciting as well as crazy right now with your new house but I'm sure your dd will love being in the new house, as will you and your dh so the running around like crazy will definitely pay off.
And your weekend sounds very nice, hope you enjoy the ballet.
Jill

Laurie,

That is totally crappy. I'm sorry you had to go through that.

Steph,

I hope that works for you. Sounds like you had a good day.

Bee,

I was going to ask if there is someone that can watch DD so she can have some play time. Sounds like you already arranged that though. I know Alek will go along with errands for awhile and then he just hits a wall with it and wants to be at home playing.

Dawn

Laurie - that totally sucks that you waited around all day for nothing and now you are being penalized for it! Anyway to leave or come in early/late one day instead of taking longer lunches?

Steph - good for you! Sounds like it was a good day : )

I've been having a super busy week on my end. On one hand it's been good in that I haven't been home long enough to stress eat. On the other hand, I feel like I'm in over drive.

I feel like I'm constantly doing something house related - either on the selling side or the building side. Countless phone calls to the realtor, builder, landscaper, title company etc.... It's a great process but on top of working every morning, I'm feeling like I'm never home.

Poor dd is being dragged everywhere the second she walks through the door from school. She's been a trooper about it but I feel badly. I can't remember the last time she got to play outside and just run around : (

Tomorrow and Friday are going to be totally nonstop but I'm hoping that once Friday night hits, we can have a "normal" relaxed weekend.

Dh and I are going out to dinner, dd is visiting the grandparents and everyone thinks it's a win-win. Saturday, we're going hiking as a family in the morning and then outlet shopping in the afternoon. Sunday, we're taking dd to the ballet (Sleeping Beauty) and she can't wait.

I'm hoping to put everything on a shelf for the weekend and just enjoy each other's company.

Next week will be just as hectic. I'm not usually one to look forward to summer break but I really am this year. I'm cutting back to two mornings/week at work and dd will be in day camp for 4 weeks starting at the end of June (she'll be going every other week so it will stretch out until mid August). I'm looking forward to having some down time again (although we'll be moving at that point).

I have to say after a nice session at Yoga and some time before work I thought about more of this plateau. I read a post MaryJo wrote to Fer about eating way too many carbs and I think that is where I have been going wrong.

So today I did a little experiment of balancing everything out with my meals and I have to say I am feeling MUCH better. I had a lot of water and fruits and veggies with the protein. Then with dinner I had my carbs. I actually made some delic brwn rice with beans.

I am really going to try to stay on this track and my other goals. My BIGGEST NSV today was before noon today I had finished 2 16 ounces of water.

Thanks for listening.

Ok I need to vent about work. My manager can be an idiot sometimes. He had me come in at 7 am this today to meet with the District Manager. Well I'm there, and I wait and wait. Finally around noon he calls to say he's not coming. Turns out that even if he did come in, it would have been later in the day anyways. But fear not, he is sending over another big wig, who i also have to interview with, and he'll be there around 2.. Ok he actually showed up at 4 pm. So it boils down to me waiting around at work from for 9 hours for no apparent reason. Now I am "over payroll" and have to take 90 minute lunches the rest of the week. There is nothing to do in that place for 90 minutes URGG. And this means these interviews will drag all the way into next week. I need the interviews before I can begin training, and I need to complete my training by the end of next week because someone is going out on medical leave.


Ok just venting... ok more like rambling... at least I feel better now

Laurie

Thanks for the kind words. DH has been to the counselor once and is going again this week. I am also going to see her on my own this week.

Thanks again for the support...it really means alot

Kat,
I'm so sorry you are going through that. Depression can lead to people doing things that are totally out of character. I also hope you can get him to a professional.

Tina,
That's a bummer! We're going to be re-doing things around here too to get our house ready to sell. It is really stressful, even when it goes "smoothly."

Dawn

Kat,

You need to get your husband to a mental health professional. I'll keep you both in my prayers. I know he is not in a good place. Your support for him must be one positive he can count on.

Linda

Good morning to everyone out there!

The weather sucks today - rainy and windy...not even a nice spring kind of rain. I am trying to get caught up with everything in my house so that I can get it on the market.

My daughter and her friends painted her bedroom yesterday and I finished it by doing the trim on the ceiling and as it dried I noticed that what I painted is darker than what is on the walls..............grrrr it must have separated and now I will have to repaint the whole room as it looks terrible....

I didn't accomplish everything that I wanted - but will be atleast getting the kitchen under control. It definitely looked like a tornado went through it.

I have been bad about exercising - giving the ole I don't have time excuse. I would have time if I just got up earlier (YUCK-- ) or stay up a little later........... or

So - need to get my &*^ going and get moving. I did accomplish (atleast) getting a pill reminder thing to put all my vitamins in so that I remember to take them everyday....instead of hauling out all the bottles.

I will try to touch base during the week for a good old - kick in the pants from all of you.!!!!!!!!!!!

Motivation and support - you guys are the best.

Kat -- Big hugs to you.

If you can get him to a professional, hopefully it will help him to see his way out of the gloom.

Good luck to you.

{{{{{{{Kat}}}}}}}

Oh my goodness, how horrible, Kat. I'm so glad you let some of that stress and hurt out here. I truly hope that your DH can get some help (I ditto Bee's suggestion about professional help, but I also know how most men are about going to the doctor). Not only is the quick weight loss in a month scary, but you don't want him making such a major life decision (about your marriage) when he is not thinking or feeling clearly.

Oh Kat!!! I'm so sorry that you are going through such a difficult time with your dh.
It sounds like he could really benefit from talking to a professional. Any chance of getting him to agree?

I need to vent so here it goes...

Dear journal,

DH has been in a depressed mode for one month and it has been getting worse by the day. It is the same stuff that he has dealt with before and it gets harder on me every time.

He has lost over 20#'s in a month, can't sleep, has anxiety attacks and isn't social. He says he isn't depressed...bull crap! I want to scream at him, but know that doesn't help. He says that he feels the need to move out and be on his own...that really hurts.

I know it isn't me or my fault...it is all a part of the depression. I just want to help him but also want to kick, scream and throw a fit!!

He had a not so great childhood and his dad is a huge jerk that has never tried very hard to be a good parent. DH wrote a letter to him apologizing for letting him down and not doing things right. He also mentioned he was thinking of leaving me. I didn't realize he had mailed it until yesterday when there was a letter from his dad on our back door (we don't even live a mile a part). His dad went on and on about life not being greener on the other side and how awful divorce is(he has done it twice)...but not once did he mention the real problem for my husband. He needs to know that he isn't a failure in his father's eyes and that his father has done him wrong...terribly wrong!

DH and I have been together over 20 years and have gone through some great times and bad times. We have never been able to have kids, but decided to not dwell on it. I went through my hope chest a little over a month ago and got rid of some used baby clothes people had given us over the years. DH said that really bothered him and made him realize he has let me down and if he left maybe I could have kids with someone else. I don't want kids with anyone else and if it can't be with him..then not at all.

I love to travel and dh doesn't, so that has been on his mind too. He thinks my life would be soooo much better without him. I don't agree!!!!!

He has been going for walks and tonight went for a really long one. I think exercise is great, but it annoys me that for years I have been trying to get him to go walking with me and he wouldn't. Now he is obsessed and even runs. He went late tonight and was gone for an hour and a half...I was getting worried. He went really far and if I had gone on that route he would've been ticked...or maybe not now.

Okay, I am starting to ramble so I will stop.

Oh Dawn, I'm so sorry. That has to be SO frustrating (it makes me NUTS when people cancel at the last minute, personally). I hope you get to enjoy a really fun night sometime soon that does NOT get canceled!!!

Thanks Sandy and Bee.
Sandy, me too, that would be fun.

Bee, if the sitter were coming to our house, then I would have done that, or kept her here and DH and I could have done something close to home.

The sitter though, lived near to where we were going out. (About 45 mins-1hr. away, by my office.) She is actually a co-worker of mine. So, she was going to take DS for sushi and then hang out. Since he was going with us, we weren't going to be able to stay too late. Which is why we scraped everything altogether.

Also, had I not been fighting a migraine all day, I might have tried harder to go. I don't have one now, but they make me really tired.

In all reality, it is probably better that we're not going out. I'm still ticked though since it wasn't our decision. I'm just really tired of the lack of respect that DH's company has for their employees and their employee's families.

Then, to rub salt into an open wound, when DH took them the reports they made such an issue of they said "Oh, that was fast. You could have gotten those to us on Monday."

Dawn